I think most of you know that I made it to the to ranking, I ranked the 17 elhamdulellah :)
I'm not writing this to say how happy I am (I'm happy of course) but I'll not waste your time with that, I'm writing this post to say 3 things, and hope I don't end up wasting your time " :D
the first thing, and allow me to write it in arabic first is "ضاقت فلما استحكمت حلقاتها، فرجت وما كنت اظنها تفرح" (hope I said it right)
when life gets so hard, and you feel that there is no way out, it suddenly eases again, and everything goes well
the 5th semester (the one I ranked in) was the worst semester ever, even worse than semester 1, it was my dream to be in the ranking, and that semester I decided that its now or never
I studied so hard for the midterms, and I thought that I must get the best marks I could ever get
but I got the disappointment of my life, and with every grade announced I was even more disappointed
I'll not say that the grades were bad, but they were below the ranking level
I gave up, and started to convince myself, that I'm just not bright enough
that was too much pressure on my nerves, and I entered into a severe depression
and when I say severe, I mean severe, I took the online tests, but told no one then
a lot of accidents happened during that semester to me and to my family, which added even more to my bad emotions, and to my weight to be honest :D
this depression somehow, glued me to my chair, sometimes on facebook, sometimes studying, and my parents pushed me to just finish the fight till the end, and I studied with complete doubt
I remember that I had the worst eye dryness ever those finals, and my mom was completely worried, and I was the happiest person on planet when the semester ended, and I got to travel away
I never accepted the idea that I'm not bright but I had something else to concentrate upon then; the revolution, and that gave me hopes beyond measure again in everything in life
during the 6th semester, God took two things away from me, a friend, and the Student Union, which has been a dream from a very long time
I was almost sure about the SU loss, I nominated myself very late, and just for the sake of the experience
later this semester, I came to know other friends more deeply and became to appreciate them more, and one night I wrote on facebook that "whenever God takes away something from you, its because he'll give you another beautiful thing" and that is the second thing I wanned to say in this post
10 minutes later, however I knew that the ranking was out
we were only sure about the top 2 people, so I removed this facebook status, fearing that people might think me talking about the ranking
that night, I had hopes that I tried t suppress, but one of my friends; Afaf Aref, told me "تفائلوا بالخير تجيدوه" "be optimistic. and you'll always find good things" and my mom simply said "who knows!"
I slept with my mobile next to my bed, and the next morning I was awaken with a phone call from another friend announcing the news (I'm not sure if she would want me to tell her name but I'm obliged to say "Thank you very much S.M" )
the third thing I wanned to say is what my mom told me that day "God is our father, and a father would give a son a thing and bans it from the other, but in the end, he is sure that they are all equal, cause he is their father and loves them equally"
we are equal people, if you are not in the ranking, then you have something else I don't have, and if you want to have something you need to give up something else (that is simple economics & opportunity cost) - I gave up my mental and physical health, and a couple of other things -
if you set a dream and work hard for it, - trust me - you''ll reach it, the human's will is very powerful
one of my dreams were the ranking, your dream maybe different, but no matter what it is, never tell yourself that you are weak like I did, believe in yourself, work hard, and sacrifice, and you'll be reworded
Special thanks goes to my parents, sister, brother, and all my friends who stood beside me, may God make all your dreams come true
P.S I fixed the comments problem and you can now comment a bit more easier
I'm not writing this to say how happy I am (I'm happy of course) but I'll not waste your time with that, I'm writing this post to say 3 things, and hope I don't end up wasting your time " :D
the first thing, and allow me to write it in arabic first is "ضاقت فلما استحكمت حلقاتها، فرجت وما كنت اظنها تفرح" (hope I said it right)
when life gets so hard, and you feel that there is no way out, it suddenly eases again, and everything goes well
the 5th semester (the one I ranked in) was the worst semester ever, even worse than semester 1, it was my dream to be in the ranking, and that semester I decided that its now or never
I studied so hard for the midterms, and I thought that I must get the best marks I could ever get
but I got the disappointment of my life, and with every grade announced I was even more disappointed
I'll not say that the grades were bad, but they were below the ranking level
I gave up, and started to convince myself, that I'm just not bright enough
that was too much pressure on my nerves, and I entered into a severe depression
and when I say severe, I mean severe, I took the online tests, but told no one then
a lot of accidents happened during that semester to me and to my family, which added even more to my bad emotions, and to my weight to be honest :D
this depression somehow, glued me to my chair, sometimes on facebook, sometimes studying, and my parents pushed me to just finish the fight till the end, and I studied with complete doubt
I remember that I had the worst eye dryness ever those finals, and my mom was completely worried, and I was the happiest person on planet when the semester ended, and I got to travel away
I never accepted the idea that I'm not bright but I had something else to concentrate upon then; the revolution, and that gave me hopes beyond measure again in everything in life
during the 6th semester, God took two things away from me, a friend, and the Student Union, which has been a dream from a very long time
I was almost sure about the SU loss, I nominated myself very late, and just for the sake of the experience
later this semester, I came to know other friends more deeply and became to appreciate them more, and one night I wrote on facebook that "whenever God takes away something from you, its because he'll give you another beautiful thing" and that is the second thing I wanned to say in this post
10 minutes later, however I knew that the ranking was out
we were only sure about the top 2 people, so I removed this facebook status, fearing that people might think me talking about the ranking
that night, I had hopes that I tried t suppress, but one of my friends; Afaf Aref, told me "تفائلوا بالخير تجيدوه" "be optimistic. and you'll always find good things" and my mom simply said "who knows!"
I slept with my mobile next to my bed, and the next morning I was awaken with a phone call from another friend announcing the news (I'm not sure if she would want me to tell her name but I'm obliged to say "Thank you very much S.M" )
the third thing I wanned to say is what my mom told me that day "God is our father, and a father would give a son a thing and bans it from the other, but in the end, he is sure that they are all equal, cause he is their father and loves them equally"
we are equal people, if you are not in the ranking, then you have something else I don't have, and if you want to have something you need to give up something else (that is simple economics & opportunity cost) - I gave up my mental and physical health, and a couple of other things -
if you set a dream and work hard for it, - trust me - you''ll reach it, the human's will is very powerful
one of my dreams were the ranking, your dream maybe different, but no matter what it is, never tell yourself that you are weak like I did, believe in yourself, work hard, and sacrifice, and you'll be reworded
Special thanks goes to my parents, sister, brother, and all my friends who stood beside me, may God make all your dreams come true
P.S I fixed the comments problem and you can now comment a bit more easier
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